I live life asleep
Half-formed words
Oozing out
Through the garbled shutters of my brain.
November 10th, 2016
The world seems divided
Between the day before yesterday
And yesterday.
The future was different two days ago.
Butterfly Time
Lately
When I close my eyes
And fantasize
Before I go to sleep
It is not a man’s lips I touch with mine
That make me fall through butterfly time
They are softer lips
Fuller hips
And eyes profound and deep
She winks long lashes and curls a smile
Intoxicatingly close she stays for awhile
In her embrace
Our fingers lace
We hold each other to keep
Dreaming
Blink
There it is.
That moment between the sleepwalking and hazy eyed living
With a jolt, I wake
And for the briefest moment
Half a butterfly flutter
I see.
Life clicks into place
Like a child snapping the last button on a winter coat
A puzzle piece connects snugly
A tossed ball hovers between inertia and gravity
The camera focuses
The sunset flashes green
I stand frozen in the present
A deer with her ears pricked
Everything is unbelievably real.
And then, just as quickly
I am clawed back into the clamor of funhouse mirrors
As if grasping the moment only made it slip away faster
Sweaty palms slip off the monkey bars
I plunge back into the ocean, fighting the riptide that pulls me further out to sea
The present winks away
And the future and past resume their tug-of-war
The Extravaganza
She brushes her windswept hair
Around her noble shoulders
It billows out in swirling patterns of
Grey and white as she prepares for
Her nightly performance
She smiles seductively
Entices her azure lover closer
Whispers in their ear until they blush
A deep shade of cobalt
She giggles
Winks her liquid golden eye
Swipes lipstick and eye shadow across her skin
Unsure if
Magenta
Violet
Tangerine
Or ruby
Goes best with her hair
She drapes a glittering necklace of
City lights
Across her prominent collar bones
For a final touch fastens
Diamond hair pins and jewelry
Over her alluring body
She relishes her irresistible beauty
For the briefest moment
Then
With a soft sigh
Slowly fades into the world of dreams
Content with the resplendence of life
the lone trumpeter
feet firm and apart
shoulders back
eyes closed
lips to metal
and then –
the note.
golden chocolate and
weeping swans
slide through the bell
a second note
glides from the first
fades into the third
and a fourth
a fifth
a sixth
they tumble from the walls
jumble in exquisite patterns
tussle in a game of music
they roll down the aisles
crawl into the seats
slumber in the curtains
swirl on the stage
around her feet.
she sings through the instrument
the brass cools and melts
her fingers
and empty chairs weep,
nod at her story
the stairs groan in sympathy
does she know the power she holds?
kings would kiss her shoes
to listen to
one
whispered
note
but she plays not for royalty
her audience is the chipping ceiling paint
the crumpled ticket stubs
her loneliness rains from the trumpet
pours into the orchestra pit
the hall floods with her song
will no one listen?
she opens her eyes.
no one is there
but for a face at her feet
and two crossed knees
a friend.
To Sharna.